普通朋友

=-普通朋友-=

等待~ 我随时随地在等待
作你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱~

我在~ 你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉若到深渊
多无奈~

我愿意改变~ （what can i do~)
从新再来一遍 （just give a chance~)
我无法只是普通朋友~
感情已那么深 叫我怎么下~

当你说 hey
i only wanna be your friend
做个朋友
我在 你心中只是 just a friend
不是情人

我感谢你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱还是收不回来
so why i just can't be your friend

hate

i hate people say sorry after damage is done.
then y do u deal damage at first?

i really hate this kind of people now days.
these peoples are disgusting, max to the core.
why don't just admit that you do it purposely?
every actions bring a purposely,
don't tell me that u talk for nothing, talk because of nothing?
seriously, please stay out of my sight.

hate it. hate theses kind of peoples give all sort of reasons and say that they are been forced to do so.
absurd. disgusted. hated.

" we don't cry over the spilled milk, but what if u do it the second times, and again and again. "

zq

Promise

I remember every single promises i made.
Some i fulfill, some not.
but i take my words seriously.
some promises had made to me.
i take those seriously too.
but these promises forgotten already.
i won't think about forcing to fulfill promises that gave me.
but still emotionally, i feel is a betray to me.
And i have very minimum of tolerance for betray.
i can take insults, bad words, or even curses.
but not betray. as i will never even look at you once and for all.


xice

p.s i'm back. this is the real me. not zq anymore

recently

many things happened recently.
thanks for concerns from joanna who came to talk to me :D
really thanks dear, u are sweetsz :D
but i also noe tat u gt problems of your own. sorry for not sensitive to you.
coz i also abit emo these few days.

family problem, financial problem, love problem, trust issues, promises such
are really messing me up.
now, i almost ready to clear these problems one by one.
step by step, shall be done. :)

happy birthday to Kairong & Huxley.
Kairong, dun mess urself too much. i noe u are enjoying freedom but there is a price to pay. :D
Huxley, holidays doesnt extend. but can self-extend de. but make sure you are able to come back continue ur plans. :D
As to you both, im sorry tat i unable to attend urs birthday surprises. forgive me :)~

as for friends are concern abt me, i've changed.
if i have done u wrong, please forgive me as my values changes.
my main concern is studies, other will have to give way.
please forgive for not tagging along, forgive me of not talking to u often.
but some, some things im not going to clear up as it is against my principles. :)

anyway, whatever.
the end.

ps: those who are closer to me, dun worry. you still get the same amount of love but there will be slight difference :)

xice

Words

Don't say anything that you don't mean it.
i hate peoples say i can't stop or whatever reasons.
these doesn't prove that you are innocent.
it's just showing how ugly you are.
trusts and promise are taken, yet none of them is kept.

I shall reevaluate promises and trusts.
I shall not believe words again as words are meant to be used to gain trusts or self-gain purpose.
I shall not even believe what thy going to say next when thy was in tears or shattered emotions.
As history will not ever repeated

" These are my recent emotions. Shall drop it and never ever show kindness to such "

习惯寂寞

我想我是习惯寂寞的人。
因为，对于感情这部分。
我似乎是已经没有知觉了。
前几天，某种原因我似乎疯了。
但是现在，我觉得已经不重要了。
因为，我回到了寂寞的一个人。
因为，一个人的我不在感到寂寞。
反而，两个人或以上，我感到寂寞。
朋友或情人都无所谓。
因为我的情人在台湾，我只好等她回到我身边。
我们的诺言使得我们默默的等待。
所以，我因次不感到寂寞。一个人的时候。
对待别人好，我好像是在自我满足的表现。
可是，他人似乎当作是理所当然。
我觉得我好像是个笨蛋。
就像前几年，有人对我说。
“ 坏人不难当，普通人很简单，当好人是好像要当圣人。
别人有难的时候，就要你。 但他人不要你的时候，就会有很多理由把你推开。”
当时我的答案是 “ 没关系”
但是。。。
现在我的答案是 “好。我知到这么做了”
无言是非是最好的回答，但
它使得然让我有最好的回应。

你现在幸福吗？

你现在幸福吗？
依然妳有了他，我就不能再进入你的世界。
我对妳好也只能到这里。
反正都只是单方面的关系，没有必要。
只有朋友了。
对你而言，可能我只不过是普通朋友。
而我只感觉到普通朋友的感情。
不要再说我们是好朋友。
在此我会祝福妳。