Monday, December 21, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Understanding
thoughts for today:-
tired, still have maths to go. tut7.
comms skills report by wk 13.
network report by wk 16.
OOJ by wk 17.
holiday is screwed, dun think i can rest.
finally done my cpf issue, but still i nid to write a letter to finance nyp.
oh well, bummer. no idea how to type it out.
business ethics essay quiz is at this Thursday.
sure is hard. trying very hard for all the problems i faced.
this Friday meeting my bro for java. hope he can teach me some tricks.
i feel tired, wanted to talk to my ger but she busy.
i think we are in the end, sometimes.
we dun realli have any talks between us. sometimes we speak silence thru phone.
maybe we noe each other very well? maybe. i'm sure i noe her very well.. haha maybe.
hux and me go to BK for munch. talks about alot of things.
no idea why we talks alot of things. but still, he is a good friend.
stopping talking nonsense. learned to listen silence.
more works on hand than my ill mouth.
starting to get rid of my bad habits.
good signs. i guess.
i think that's it. sign off.
zq
" long distance relationship is hard to maintain but i will keep trying til she throw me away "
tired, still have maths to go. tut7.
comms skills report by wk 13.
network report by wk 16.
OOJ by wk 17.
holiday is screwed, dun think i can rest.
finally done my cpf issue, but still i nid to write a letter to finance nyp.
oh well, bummer. no idea how to type it out.
business ethics essay quiz is at this Thursday.
sure is hard. trying very hard for all the problems i faced.
this Friday meeting my bro for java. hope he can teach me some tricks.
i feel tired, wanted to talk to my ger but she busy.
i think we are in the end, sometimes.
we dun realli have any talks between us. sometimes we speak silence thru phone.
maybe we noe each other very well? maybe. i'm sure i noe her very well.. haha maybe.
hux and me go to BK for munch. talks about alot of things.
no idea why we talks alot of things. but still, he is a good friend.
stopping talking nonsense. learned to listen silence.
more works on hand than my ill mouth.
starting to get rid of my bad habits.
good signs. i guess.
i think that's it. sign off.
zq
" long distance relationship is hard to maintain but i will keep trying til she throw me away "
Sunday, December 13, 2009
I wonder
I wonder anyone looking at my blog?
I wonder what is my ger doing?
I wonder how am i suppose to solve all the issues?
I wonder how long can i stand in this world?
I wonder after i fall apart, where am i going?
I wonder when is the so called best friend going to talk to me again?
I start to wonder, wonder and wonder. *Stone*
I wonder the effort to keep the friendship is worth keeping?
I wonder when can i get back my attitude on study?
I wonder when can i start to think better?
I wonder when am i going to start to cut my fat down?
I start to wonder again, again and again. *Stone*
I wonder my love between with her is it still there?
I wonder is there anyone care about me while i care too much for others?
I wonder is there anyone heard my voice?
I wonder is success start from habits?
I wonder can i identify my bad habits?
I wonder should i close my blog since no one cares?
I start to stone, again and again. *Wonder*
" I wonder... "
zq
I wonder what is my ger doing?
I wonder how am i suppose to solve all the issues?
I wonder how long can i stand in this world?
I wonder after i fall apart, where am i going?
I wonder when is the so called best friend going to talk to me again?
I start to wonder, wonder and wonder. *Stone*
I wonder the effort to keep the friendship is worth keeping?
I wonder when can i get back my attitude on study?
I wonder when can i start to think better?
I wonder when am i going to start to cut my fat down?
I start to wonder again, again and again. *Stone*
I wonder my love between with her is it still there?
I wonder is there anyone care about me while i care too much for others?
I wonder is there anyone heard my voice?
I wonder is success start from habits?
I wonder can i identify my bad habits?
I wonder should i close my blog since no one cares?
I start to stone, again and again. *Wonder*
" I wonder... "
zq
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Asada Ryutaro
Asada Ryutaro - Skilled Surgeon (Team Medical Dragon)
" I can't forsake the patients whose going to die in front of my eyes "
" Trust them, they are the real doctors. "
" No matter what is going to happen to me, I'm going to save them "
" We are team, without you. We are nothing! "
" He know that he is a sinner, but he have no choice to chose this path.
But you are forced to walk this path that's the path he wishes. Keep walking. "
" I will not give up even is just 0.1%. I will save him from the depth of death. "
" Cases in the medical book are not the same as the real cases. "
zq
" I can't forsake the patients whose going to die in front of my eyes "
" Trust them, they are the real doctors. "
" No matter what is going to happen to me, I'm going to save them "
" We are team, without you. We are nothing! "
" He know that he is a sinner, but he have no choice to chose this path.
But you are forced to walk this path that's the path he wishes. Keep walking. "
" I will not give up even is just 0.1%. I will save him from the depth of death. "
" Cases in the medical book are not the same as the real cases. "
zq
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Killing me Softly in my Heart
My gal SmS me.
Rare, but nice to see.
She asking why i didnt call her.
She miss me. So do i.
but i dun have money to call her.
yes.. no money. i'm in a very deep hole.
maybe later part, i wont be in Nyp.
i realli nid love to continue this Trial.
i need strength for now.
i'm such a weakling.
" Love or Bread, choose one. "
zq
Rare, but nice to see.
She asking why i didnt call her.
She miss me. So do i.
but i dun have money to call her.
yes.. no money. i'm in a very deep hole.
maybe later part, i wont be in Nyp.
i realli nid love to continue this Trial.
i need strength for now.
i'm such a weakling.
" Love or Bread, choose one. "
zq
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Urahara Kisuke
" There is nothing but fear reflected in your sword. When you dodge, you're afraid of getting killed. When you attack, you're afraid of killing someone. Even when you try to protect someone, you're afraid of letting them die. Yes, your sword speaks to me only of absurd fear. What's necessary in a fight isn't fear. Nothing can be born of that. When you dodge, "I won't let them cut me." If you protect someone, "I won't let them die." If you attack, "I will kill them." Well, can't you see the resolve to kill you in my sword? "
Fear is something not necessary. Nothing can born of that. Resolve can be seen.
zq
Fear is something not necessary. Nothing can born of that. Resolve can be seen.
zq
Monday, November 9, 2009
Fate | Destiny
Destiny Fate
Is there any difference to this two words?
The world is moving. i don't feel the move. i don't feel any pain.
Remember she left me behind, i found myself powerless.
powerless and unable to pull her to stay.
love is important to me.
she is more realistic than me.
she's living in this world. she living in my world.
everything is moving even after she left.
the world does not cry for me. heart felt pain.
after years, i'm still love her.
but felt powerless.
i'm searching for power to stand. power to hold.
Powerless is grant to me even loss was too great to carry,
i fell into this deep hold.
holding my friends hands but who can save me.
who can save me?
I'm thinking all the negative thoughts.
too negative. i fail myself rather than i failed the test.
Is there nothing i can do to break this destiny or fate?
i urge power, i urge for power.
too sleepy to think.
today i shall stop here.
" who can save me this salvetion or im suppose to drop to the depth of the hell? "
Is there any difference to this two words?
The world is moving. i don't feel the move. i don't feel any pain.
Remember she left me behind, i found myself powerless.
powerless and unable to pull her to stay.
love is important to me.
she is more realistic than me.
she's living in this world. she living in my world.
everything is moving even after she left.
the world does not cry for me. heart felt pain.
after years, i'm still love her.
but felt powerless.
i'm searching for power to stand. power to hold.
Powerless is grant to me even loss was too great to carry,
i fell into this deep hold.
holding my friends hands but who can save me.
who can save me?
I'm thinking all the negative thoughts.
too negative. i fail myself rather than i failed the test.
Is there nothing i can do to break this destiny or fate?
i urge power, i urge for power.
too sleepy to think.
today i shall stop here.
" who can save me this salvetion or im suppose to drop to the depth of the hell? "
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Close to heart
i saw a TV programming about celebrity introduce Brunei tourism.
Eric Zeng, HongKong celebrity.
he was talking about his point view in life. before and after.
he had been thru 7 days of monk in his life in taiwan.
he said about Buddhism, talking about cleansing his soul in 7 days.
he also talk about ones hold something dearly.
Buddhism talks about letting it go, why bother holding?
ones came to this world with nothing, and bring nothing when it goes.
i started to think about the misunderstanding between us.
although i know they are just having fun, and i just means surprise.
but i just dun feel nice about it. heart felt sour and bitter.
i was thinking the past what i have did to them was trying to ignore them.
i was wrong to do this because i also made me feel unhappy too.
i thought they would know or understand how i felt.
after listening Eric Zeng talking about his experience,
i started to realize i have been unhappy for sometime.
Is time to let go of this matter. maybe is too late.
i guess it doesn't matter. as long i release this burden,
freedom is the word.
i guess is hard to speak infront of them as i started to imagine.
cards maybe works. maybe ~
" letting it go doesn't mean you don't care, it just releasing your burden "
zq
Eric Zeng, HongKong celebrity.
he was talking about his point view in life. before and after.
he had been thru 7 days of monk in his life in taiwan.
he said about Buddhism, talking about cleansing his soul in 7 days.
he also talk about ones hold something dearly.
Buddhism talks about letting it go, why bother holding?
ones came to this world with nothing, and bring nothing when it goes.
i started to think about the misunderstanding between us.
although i know they are just having fun, and i just means surprise.
but i just dun feel nice about it. heart felt sour and bitter.
i was thinking the past what i have did to them was trying to ignore them.
i was wrong to do this because i also made me feel unhappy too.
i thought they would know or understand how i felt.
after listening Eric Zeng talking about his experience,
i started to realize i have been unhappy for sometime.
Is time to let go of this matter. maybe is too late.
i guess it doesn't matter. as long i release this burden,
freedom is the word.
i guess is hard to speak infront of them as i started to imagine.
cards maybe works. maybe ~
" letting it go doesn't mean you don't care, it just releasing your burden "
zq
Saturday, October 24, 2009
我的世界失眠
全世界失眠
作詞：林夕
作曲：陳偉
編曲：陳偉
想起我不完美 你會不會
逃離我生命的範圍
想著你的滋味 我會不會
把這個枕頭 變得甜美
想起白天的約會 忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水 遠離我夢中的堡壘
一個人失眠 全世界失眠
無辜的街燈 守候明天
幸福的失眠 只是因為害怕閉上眼
如何想你想到六點 如何愛你愛到終點
想起我的時候 你會不會 好像我一樣不能睡
想像你的曖昧 我會不會 數不到綿羊 一雙一對
想起白天的約會 忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水 遠離我夢中的堡壘
一個人失眠 全世界失眠
無辜的街燈 守候明天
幸福的失眠 只是因為害怕閉上眼 如何想你想到六點
一個人失眠 全世界失眠
幸福的失眠 只是因為害怕閉上眼 如何想你想到六點
如何愛你愛到終點 如何愛你愛到終點
“ 如何愛你愛到終點 如何愛你愛到終點 ”
zq
作詞：林夕
作曲：陳偉
編曲：陳偉
想起我不完美 你會不會
逃離我生命的範圍
想著你的滋味 我會不會
把這個枕頭 變得甜美
想起白天的約會 忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水 遠離我夢中的堡壘
一個人失眠 全世界失眠
無辜的街燈 守候明天
幸福的失眠 只是因為害怕閉上眼
如何想你想到六點 如何愛你愛到終點
想起我的時候 你會不會 好像我一樣不能睡
想像你的曖昧 我會不會 數不到綿羊 一雙一對
想起白天的約會 忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水 遠離我夢中的堡壘
一個人失眠 全世界失眠
無辜的街燈 守候明天
幸福的失眠 只是因為害怕閉上眼 如何想你想到六點
一個人失眠 全世界失眠
幸福的失眠 只是因為害怕閉上眼 如何想你想到六點
如何愛你愛到終點 如何愛你愛到終點
“ 如何愛你愛到終點 如何愛你愛到終點 ”
zq
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Plants vs Zombies
Just completed this game. Saw my brother was playing this game.
Omg, i never expected this game is so addictive.
very very cute game. kawaii zo!
In the credits, they have a music video.
" Zombies on your lawn"
haha.. very very cute. but i like more on the japanese version.
because in english version chorus, they made the zombies sound singing.
urgh.. damn odd but i love the singer voice. very light and cute.
so i decided to find out this singer, Laura Shigihara.
she have a blog of her own.
http://shigi.wordpress.com/
and found out there is a jap version.
i like jap version more than english.
here the lyrics and the mp3.
“Uraniwa ni Zombies ga!”
by Laura Shigihara
Omg, i never expected this game is so addictive.
very very cute game. kawaii zo!
In the credits, they have a music video.
" Zombies on your lawn"
haha.. very very cute. but i like more on the japanese version.
because in english version chorus, they made the zombies sound singing.
urgh.. damn odd but i love the singer voice. very light and cute.
so i decided to find out this singer, Laura Shigihara.
she have a blog of her own.
http://shigi.wordpress.com/
and found out there is a jap version.
i like jap version more than english.
here the lyrics and the mp3.
“Uraniwa ni Zombies ga!”
by Laura Shigihara
Himawari
(chorus)
Zombie ga yatte kita
Zombie ga yatte kita
Zombie ga yatte kita
Zombie wa dete ita
(verse 1)
Zombie wa kowai gaikotsu
Hanabira zenbu o toritagaru
Sono ato atama wo tabetagaru
Tadano Himawari
Dakedo watashi wa tsuyoi!
Noumiso ga suki
Zombie wa kirai
(pre-chorus 1)
Softball de asonda yo!
Helmetto wo kabutta zo!
Screen door wo motta zo!
Oretachi Zombie, Zombie, Zombie da!
(chorus)
Zombie ga yatte kita
Zombie ga yatte kita
Zombie ga yatte kita
Zombie wa dete ita
(verse 2)
Uraniwa de asobitai
Atama wo taberu no yamenasai
Noumiso niwa cholesterol ga ippai
Shinda node kankei nai kedo
Solar power de tatakau yo
Shokubutsu wo mamoru tame
(pre-chorus 2)
Sono sanrinsha choudai
Atama ni butter ga kuttsui jata
Noumiso taberu zo!
Oretachi Zombie, Zombie, Zombie da!
(chorus)
Zombie ga yatte kita
Zombie ga yatte kita
Zombie ga yatte kita
Zombie wa dete ita
and the english version of coz. lyrics included in this MV.
if you would like to have this game, always can msn me for the installer.
" we don't like zombies, instead we used solor power "
zq
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
悲しいほど貴方が好き
気がついたら 恋しかった
悲しい出来事(ニュース)
あふれる街で
貴方の声が聴けない日は
私の すべてが止まる
悲しいほど 貴方がすきで
恋しすぎると「何故なの?」
こんなにも苦しい...
勇気を持って 新しい世界の
扉 開(あ)け放とう
貴方が 私の心を
朝焼けに染めた
So, I’ll make it with you
空を飛ぶ 烏のように
大空を 自由に飛びたい
貴方がふさぎ込み うつむく日は
私が そっと 照らしてあげたい
悲しいほど 貴方がすきで
恋は綱引きね
どんどん貴方へ
引っ張られていくみたい
また明日は 逢えるのかな
どうしていいか
分からないくらい
貴方が 私の心を
夕焼けに 染めた
瞳に 星降る キャンバス
未来を示している星はどれ?
悲しいほど 貴方がすきで
恋しすぎると「何故なの?」
こんなにも苦しい...
勇気を持って 新しい世界の
扉 開(あ)け放とう
貴方が 私の心を
七色に染めた
七色に染めた
So, I’ll make it with you
悲しい出来事(ニュース)
あふれる街で
貴方の声が聴けない日は
私の すべてが止まる
悲しいほど 貴方がすきで
恋しすぎると「何故なの?」
こんなにも苦しい...
勇気を持って 新しい世界の
扉 開(あ)け放とう
貴方が 私の心を
朝焼けに染めた
So, I’ll make it with you
空を飛ぶ 烏のように
大空を 自由に飛びたい
貴方がふさぎ込み うつむく日は
私が そっと 照らしてあげたい
悲しいほど 貴方がすきで
恋は綱引きね
どんどん貴方へ
引っ張られていくみたい
また明日は 逢えるのかな
どうしていいか
分からないくらい
貴方が 私の心を
夕焼けに 染めた
瞳に 星降る キャンバス
未来を示している星はどれ?
悲しいほど 貴方がすきで
恋しすぎると「何故なの?」
こんなにも苦しい...
勇気を持って 新しい世界の
扉 開(あ)け放とう
貴方が 私の心を
七色に染めた
七色に染めた
So, I’ll make it with you
Thursday, October 8, 2009
倉木麻衣 - Secret of My Heart
どんな 言(こと)葉(ば)に変(か)えて
君(きみ)に 伝(つた)えられるだろう
あれから いくつもの季(き)節(せつ)が
通(とお)り過(す)ぎたけれど
いつも 傍(そば)で笑(わら)ってる
私(わたし)にも言(い)えないことが まだ
ひとつだけある
Secret of my heart 疑(うたが)ってもないね
いつだって少(すこ)しの未(み)来(らい)があれば
真(しん)実(じつ)は 手(て)に入(い)れられるはず
I can't say もう少(すこ)しだけ
I'm waiting for a chance
こんな 穏(おだ)やかな時(と)間(き)
もっと 繋(つな)がっていたい
全(すべ)てを見(み)せるのが 怖(こわ)くて
少(すこ)し離(はな)れて歩(ある)く
君(きみ)の横(よこ)顔(かお)がなぜか
壊(こわ)れそうで 守(まも)りたい
もっと近(ちか)づきたいよ
Secret of my heart
理(わ)解(か)ってくれるよね
誰(だれ)だって 逃(に)げたい時(とき)もあるけど
それだけじゃ 何(なに)も始(はじ)まらない
I can't say きっと必(かなら)ず
I'm waiting for a chance
Can I tell the truth? その言(こと)葉(ば)言(い)えず
空(から)回(まわ)りする唇(くちびる)に
Feeling in my heart 隠(かく)せない
これ以(い)上(じょう) 'Cause I love you
I will be with you Wherever you are
Can you feel my heart?
Can't you see, you're my dream
失(うしな)いたくないよ
大(たい)切(せつ)な 君(きみ)と過(す)ごすこの時(じ)間(かん)
あきらめる位(くらい)なら 信(しん)じて
I just wanna say もう迷(まよ)わない
Can't you see, you're my heart
どんな作(つく)り物(もの)も
簡(かん)単(たん)に壊(こわ)れてしまう 日(ひ)が来(く)る
だけどまだ いつまでも
変(か)わらない
Secret of my heart Out future is forever
君(きみ)に 伝(つた)えられるだろう
あれから いくつもの季(き)節(せつ)が
通(とお)り過(す)ぎたけれど
いつも 傍(そば)で笑(わら)ってる
私(わたし)にも言(い)えないことが まだ
ひとつだけある
Secret of my heart 疑(うたが)ってもないね
いつだって少(すこ)しの未(み)来(らい)があれば
真(しん)実(じつ)は 手(て)に入(い)れられるはず
I can't say もう少(すこ)しだけ
I'm waiting for a chance
こんな 穏(おだ)やかな時(と)間(き)
もっと 繋(つな)がっていたい
全(すべ)てを見(み)せるのが 怖(こわ)くて
少(すこ)し離(はな)れて歩(ある)く
君(きみ)の横(よこ)顔(かお)がなぜか
壊(こわ)れそうで 守(まも)りたい
もっと近(ちか)づきたいよ
Secret of my heart
理(わ)解(か)ってくれるよね
誰(だれ)だって 逃(に)げたい時(とき)もあるけど
それだけじゃ 何(なに)も始(はじ)まらない
I can't say きっと必(かなら)ず
I'm waiting for a chance
Can I tell the truth? その言(こと)葉(ば)言(い)えず
空(から)回(まわ)りする唇(くちびる)に
Feeling in my heart 隠(かく)せない
これ以(い)上(じょう) 'Cause I love you
I will be with you Wherever you are
Can you feel my heart?
Can't you see, you're my dream
失(うしな)いたくないよ
大(たい)切(せつ)な 君(きみ)と過(す)ごすこの時(じ)間(かん)
あきらめる位(くらい)なら 信(しん)じて
I just wanna say もう迷(まよ)わない
Can't you see, you're my heart
どんな作(つく)り物(もの)も
簡(かん)単(たん)に壊(こわ)れてしまう 日(ひ)が来(く)る
だけどまだ いつまでも
変(か)わらない
Secret of my heart Out future is forever
Change OST - Miles away
I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
You never would believe the things that I have seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked right through me you where miles away
All my dreams they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
I can pretend to be someone else
Chorus :
You always love me more miles away
I hear it in your voice when you're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away
So far away... (x8)
When no ones around and I have you here
I begin to see the picture it becomes so clear
You always have the biggest heart when we're six thousand miles apart
Too much of no sound uncomfortable silence can be so loud
Those three words are never enough when it's long distance love...
(Chorus)
So far away... (x8)
I'm alright
Don't be sorry
But it's true
When I'm gone..
You'll realize that I'm the best thing that happened to you...
(Chorus) x2
So far away... (x8)
So far away... (x8)
You never would believe the things that I have seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked right through me you where miles away
All my dreams they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
I can pretend to be someone else
Chorus :
You always love me more miles away
I hear it in your voice when you're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away
So far away... (x8)
When no ones around and I have you here
I begin to see the picture it becomes so clear
You always have the biggest heart when we're six thousand miles apart
Too much of no sound uncomfortable silence can be so loud
Those three words are never enough when it's long distance love...
(Chorus)
So far away... (x8)
I'm alright
Don't be sorry
But it's true
When I'm gone..
You'll realize that I'm the best thing that happened to you...
(Chorus) x2
So far away... (x8)
So far away... (x8)
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Mysterious
隠しておきたい秘密が 君にあったとしても
僕にも疑われてしまう 事があるように
愛し過ぎるからより深く 知ろうとしてしまう
月の裏側に二人の ココロは置いていこう
握った手の温もりが 唯一の確かなもの
全てを知ってしまうと それ以上進めない気がする
Mysteriousなまま 抱きあい溶けあいたい
月灯かりに 君に溺れる
七つの謎の君の微笑み
麻酔のようなSHOWの幕開け
Mysteriousなまま 君色に染まりたい
謎もまた 楽しからずや
無防備に君を信じきるよ
時計仕掛けのSHOWが始まる
近くなればなるほど 遠くなる事がある
情熱という荷物を抱えて 彷徨っている
今日一日の終わりさえも 予想がつくから
何か始めようとする 気力が湧かなくて
日常に感じられなく なってきた日常に
誰も傷付けずに 生きる事は不可能なのか？
Mysteriousな夜に 二人を置去るなら
一瞬でいいから 永遠と呼びたい
目に映らない 君が見たくて
誰の言葉も 届かない場所へ
Ambiguous名前も 過去も今はいらない
好きも嫌いも 捨ててしまいたい
逃げるでも 行くわけでもなく
止まった時間に 二人でいたい
Mysteriousなまま 抱きあい溶けあいたい
月灯かりも 君に溺れる
孤独の中で 君を歌えば
君の声だけが 真実になる
Mysteriousな夜を 二人が求めあうなら
一瞬でいいから 永遠と呼びたい
見えないものに 触れられたなら
そこに新しい 今日が始まる
僕にも疑われてしまう 事があるように
愛し過ぎるからより深く 知ろうとしてしまう
月の裏側に二人の ココロは置いていこう
握った手の温もりが 唯一の確かなもの
全てを知ってしまうと それ以上進めない気がする
Mysteriousなまま 抱きあい溶けあいたい
月灯かりに 君に溺れる
七つの謎の君の微笑み
麻酔のようなSHOWの幕開け
Mysteriousなまま 君色に染まりたい
謎もまた 楽しからずや
無防備に君を信じきるよ
時計仕掛けのSHOWが始まる
近くなればなるほど 遠くなる事がある
情熱という荷物を抱えて 彷徨っている
今日一日の終わりさえも 予想がつくから
何か始めようとする 気力が湧かなくて
日常に感じられなく なってきた日常に
誰も傷付けずに 生きる事は不可能なのか？
Mysteriousな夜に 二人を置去るなら
一瞬でいいから 永遠と呼びたい
目に映らない 君が見たくて
誰の言葉も 届かない場所へ
Ambiguous名前も 過去も今はいらない
好きも嫌いも 捨ててしまいたい
逃げるでも 行くわけでもなく
止まった時間に 二人でいたい
Mysteriousなまま 抱きあい溶けあいたい
月灯かりも 君に溺れる
孤独の中で 君を歌えば
君の声だけが 真実になる
Mysteriousな夜を 二人が求めあうなら
一瞬でいいから 永遠と呼びたい
見えないものに 触れられたなら
そこに新しい 今日が始まる
恋心 輝きながら
降り続く 雪の中
傘をさして 君に会いに行く
初めて自分以外に 大切なもの
"本気で守りたいよ"と 振り返る街に誓った
立ち止まらないように また歩き出す
君が待っているから
恋心 辉きながら また梦を见る事に决めた
14年目にして 自分もう一度リセットして再生してみるよ
木漏れ日が 二次にあたって揺れている
时间は优しく 残酷に微笑む
限りある 运命の中
君だけを ずっと心に抱きしめて
肌を刺す風 それだけでも
切ない気持ちになるのは何故？
優しい温もりが欲しかった日々
君がいない寂しさは君じゃなきゃ
癒せないと分かったから
これから来る春にさえ未来を見ず
君への想いて心を閉じた
恋心 輝きながら また笑えるんだと笑った
結末は想像を超えるのかな？
他人のように 自分を見て
この距離に 生まれた心揺れている
時間は確かに進んでいたから
伝えたいのは あの日の後悔じゃなく
今、気付いた 君へのこの想いだけ
恋心 輝きながら この夢を見る事に決めた
君となら どんな未来にでも
きっと耐えられる 気がしだから
溶けていく 今、雪が全て溶けていく
時間が過ぎるのも 嬉しく思えた
光の側を歩く影になる
君だけを ずっとこの腕に抱きしめて
傘をさして 君に会いに行く
初めて自分以外に 大切なもの
"本気で守りたいよ"と 振り返る街に誓った
立ち止まらないように また歩き出す
君が待っているから
恋心 辉きながら また梦を见る事に决めた
14年目にして 自分もう一度リセットして再生してみるよ
木漏れ日が 二次にあたって揺れている
时间は优しく 残酷に微笑む
限りある 运命の中
君だけを ずっと心に抱きしめて
肌を刺す風 それだけでも
切ない気持ちになるのは何故？
優しい温もりが欲しかった日々
君がいない寂しさは君じゃなきゃ
癒せないと分かったから
これから来る春にさえ未来を見ず
君への想いて心を閉じた
恋心 輝きながら また笑えるんだと笑った
結末は想像を超えるのかな？
他人のように 自分を見て
この距離に 生まれた心揺れている
時間は確かに進んでいたから
伝えたいのは あの日の後悔じゃなく
今、気付いた 君へのこの想いだけ
恋心 輝きながら この夢を見る事に決めた
君となら どんな未来にでも
きっと耐えられる 気がしだから
溶けていく 今、雪が全て溶けていく
時間が過ぎるのも 嬉しく思えた
光の側を歩く影になる
君だけを ずっとこの腕に抱きしめて
Thursday, September 24, 2009
secret code
xpset bsf epvcmf-fehf rxpse
j xpoefs ipx uifrf qdpqmf dbo brl up cf gpshjwfo
tjodf uifz epou sdhsfu xibu uifz eje
nbzcf uijr jt uif sfbrpo xiz j ibuf ivnbor
j ibuf uivu uifz lopx uifjs qpxfst zfu uifz bcvtf ju
gpshjwfoftt jt cfjoh hjwfo xifo uifz voefstuboe uifjs tjot
nbzcf uijt jt uif sfbtpo xiz j'n opu b hpe cfmjfwfs
cfdbvtf iwnbot dboopu cf gpshjwfo
" thy secrets is not well-hidden, often discovered by wisdom "
zq
j xpoefs ipx uifrf qdpqmf dbo brl up cf gpshjwfo
tjodf uifz epou sdhsfu xibu uifz eje
nbzcf uijr jt uif sfbrpo xiz j ibuf ivnbor
j ibuf uivu uifz lopx uifjs qpxfst zfu uifz bcvtf ju
gpshjwfoftt jt cfjoh hjwfo xifo uifz voefstuboe uifjs tjot
nbzcf uijt jt uif sfbtpo xiz j'n opu b hpe cfmjfwfs
cfdbvtf iwnbot dboopu cf gpshjwfo
" thy secrets is not well-hidden, often discovered by wisdom "
zq
Friday, September 11, 2009
当你想起我
给我一整天 一个人沉默
最难下的决定 往往是最对的
没错 那些话 那些事
还在心里出没
承认吧 我们的明天却没有下落
曾经以为 幸福垂手可得
当爱一旦被挥霍
反而让人更寂寞
有天当你想起我
时间已摆平所有犯的错
也学会不再追问为什么
但至少我们必须都快乐
直到那么一天
面对爱情开始吝啬
会不会怀念 曾有的炙热
可是 当你想起我
我们早已经失去了联络
一路上经过各自的曲折
才明白最现实的是生活
直到那么一天
选某个人相濡以沫
会不会后悔
现在的非走不可
Thursday, August 27, 2009
disappointed
the misunderstand has gone deeper.
message got across instead it has gone deeper.
i been trying to use words as to avoid hurt.
but it's seemed i have no choice.
To Organizers,
I can see your efforts on events.
and i don't wish to hurt the efforts.
but i gonna say it straight.
thanks for my birthday events as it is the august baby event.
but on that day, after heard two of the organizers telling me what to do.
i felt i been forgotten. i was about to way back home, one of them called me.
telling me that is their plan, surprise.
but i don't feel this way. i feel very sux. this is how i feel, and this is where it started.
i don't feel surprise at all. but i don't wish to deny their efforts.
so i tell of them, "it's ok, you all carry on. i'm fine"
but in my heart, do i deserve such a surprise or rather i felt that it was a prank.
i don't remember i did this kind of surprise on anyone else.
why should i deserve this? i give blessing to everyone on their birthday.
WHY? it really hurt me deeply.
On my birthday, one of them send me a message, a blessing on my birthday.
i feel glad. but the other two, which is the organizers. after my birthday, then they remembered.
i got this feeling. was the prank on me is right? i deserved it? i felt very disappointed.
i tot they have know this. assume? assume means ass u & me.
at this point of time, i felt very disappointed, and none of them knew it.
next, i have nothing to say, the rest of the issues are the class issues.
but let me get this straight, i remember i did not say the class felt, i only say i felt or i feel.
" IGNTS - I GOT NOTHING TO SAY "
zq
Rain had calm my disappointment. it's seemed that my ger tell me to forget this matter. let's juz forget about it.
" ger always know what to do with me "
zq
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
25/08/2009
hmmm... what to say leh~
today gt maths paper. quite hard de. hard to score.
i hope i can take the sub-paper. coz i wan to score higher.
today abit pissed off. it's gd that someone come clear the misunderstand.
but seriously, i still can't feel the sincere in their words.
maybe i still angry, maybe they say something bad.
still very disappointed. answer they gave, i still not happy.
well, i shouldn't care so much on this matter. live goes on w or w/o them.
they take so long to clear the misunderstand.
what can i say~ insensitive to other feelings.
which makes your friends leave you behind.
this year birthday is damn sux. i don't like to be fool on my birthday yet they still can think is normal.
well, other words, suxxxxxxx.
" if you want others people to be your shoes, you have to think first before them. "
zq
today gt maths paper. quite hard de. hard to score.
i hope i can take the sub-paper. coz i wan to score higher.
today abit pissed off. it's gd that someone come clear the misunderstand.
but seriously, i still can't feel the sincere in their words.
maybe i still angry, maybe they say something bad.
still very disappointed. answer they gave, i still not happy.
well, i shouldn't care so much on this matter. live goes on w or w/o them.
they take so long to clear the misunderstand.
what can i say~ insensitive to other feelings.
which makes your friends leave you behind.
this year birthday is damn sux. i don't like to be fool on my birthday yet they still can think is normal.
well, other words, suxxxxxxx.
" if you want others people to be your shoes, you have to think first before them. "
zq
Thursday, August 13, 2009
thoughts for yesterday
i saw and feels alot of things.
i seen fake smile, fake blessing and fake friendship.
i feel this is so funny.
i felt i wasted time on some people that whose doesn't give a damn to me but i do care about them.
actions can be seen.
words can be revealed.
voices can be heard.
i started to stop caring these peoples who only care about themselves.
i will not speak a single word to these peoples anymore.
but i still see, there are light in between them.
glad to see. glad to see. i will cherish them forever as the times goes by.
not too bad. at least something to hold on.
smile
" Somethings can be late, but not all can be recovered "
zq
i seen fake smile, fake blessing and fake friendship.
i feel this is so funny.
i felt i wasted time on some people that whose doesn't give a damn to me but i do care about them.
actions can be seen.
words can be revealed.
voices can be heard.
i started to stop caring these peoples who only care about themselves.
i will not speak a single word to these peoples anymore.
but i still see, there are light in between them.
glad to see. glad to see. i will cherish them forever as the times goes by.
not too bad. at least something to hold on.
smile
" Somethings can be late, but not all can be recovered "
zq
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Happy Birthday to me
Happy birthday to me~
my birthday wish is to xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hehe cannot say out. wait won't work or happen.
but still i wish it will work.
For those who know me very very well de, sure know what wish i made.
maybe i think no one wish me happy birthday unless i say.
i guess i'm too low profile. maybe~
but this year, i'm little greedy. i wanted another wish.
which is i wish my grade can be better, like maths and java programming.
these two is realli damn hard. i have to work hard for this since the html project is over
Yeah~ over~ !!!!!
Thanks for the hard work guys and ger (baba)
guys are SyL, Yiyang, Anson, and
one ger is Joanna(baba).
Thanks for the hard work plus u guyz realli did good. although i complain alot and say alot,
i'm glad that u all gt listen and work thru. hehe nice 1~
nice teamwork there. Today presentation was good although some parts cockup. but still good~
gooooood~
yeah~ few words for baba and anson.
anson, thks for helping baba on the paperwork and everything.
baba, thks for the paper work and u realli nid more confident on your work. it's was realli great. have more confident in yourself.
and not to forget our flash expert and java expert. SyL and Yiyang
SyL, nice 1 for work thru on the flash. wish u can get As on this module.
Yiyang, nice 1 for not forgetting the script and the presentation. i was realli worried when u present. almost scare me sia~~ no more this man, please~
it' was good today as for me but i can see some saddness going around.
i hope u all tried your best for today. if not, u should be shame.
these was hush words but it is the truth. best or nothing.
" Have you tried your best to live up today? "
zq
my birthday wish is to xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hehe cannot say out. wait won't work or happen.
but still i wish it will work.
For those who know me very very well de, sure know what wish i made.
maybe i think no one wish me happy birthday unless i say.
i guess i'm too low profile. maybe~
but this year, i'm little greedy. i wanted another wish.
which is i wish my grade can be better, like maths and java programming.
these two is realli damn hard. i have to work hard for this since the html project is over
Yeah~ over~ !!!!!
Thanks for the hard work guys and ger (baba)
guys are SyL, Yiyang, Anson, and
one ger is Joanna(baba).
Thanks for the hard work plus u guyz realli did good. although i complain alot and say alot,
i'm glad that u all gt listen and work thru. hehe nice 1~
nice teamwork there. Today presentation was good although some parts cockup. but still good~
gooooood~
yeah~ few words for baba and anson.
anson, thks for helping baba on the paperwork and everything.
baba, thks for the paper work and u realli nid more confident on your work. it's was realli great. have more confident in yourself.
and not to forget our flash expert and java expert. SyL and Yiyang
SyL, nice 1 for work thru on the flash. wish u can get As on this module.
Yiyang, nice 1 for not forgetting the script and the presentation. i was realli worried when u present. almost scare me sia~~ no more this man, please~
it' was good today as for me but i can see some saddness going around.
i hope u all tried your best for today. if not, u should be shame.
these was hush words but it is the truth. best or nothing.
" Have you tried your best to live up today? "
zq
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Happy birthday, ger
happy birthday ger and me.
although u at taiwan, but i still wish you happy birthday.
still waiting for your call, you take very very long time to call me leh...
faster leh~ -.-"
i guess our wishes still the same.
till now, none of our wishes came true but we have to keep wishing and living.
Happy birthday, Sitinoriosari
20 years old lor.
know you for 6 years liao.
i'm still glad that i know you, found you and love you.
" ger: I wish you can be slimmer abit
me: huh~ what if i can't leh?
ger: then i love u lesser lor
me: how less?
ger: i don't know~ hehe~
me: -.-" "
zq
although u at taiwan, but i still wish you happy birthday.
still waiting for your call, you take very very long time to call me leh...
faster leh~ -.-"
i guess our wishes still the same.
till now, none of our wishes came true but we have to keep wishing and living.
Happy birthday, Sitinoriosari
20 years old lor.
know you for 6 years liao.
i'm still glad that i know you, found you and love you.
" ger: I wish you can be slimmer abit
me: huh~ what if i can't leh?
ger: then i love u lesser lor
me: how less?
ger: i don't know~ hehe~
me: -.-" "
zq
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Disappointed
Today, i'm so disappointed.
I actually do not exists in those peoples heart's.
I actually heard reasons such as because is too rush, other one kept silence.
Even if is forget, i wish you say sorry to me first before even say your reasons.
If is a prank, i can tell you. You do not know me well.
Well, what can i say? am i anti-social?
I don't really feels good as celebrate ones but for the others have to coop with them first.
Later your turn?
Zzzzzzz... i dun like this feeling. feels that i'm out of this party or something.
IT'S FEELS SUCKx. seriously... IT'S DOES FEELS SUCKx.
I have nothing else to say. just disappointed.
" Words is a powerful weapon. It's can changes ones emotions. "
I actually do not exists in those peoples heart's.
I actually heard reasons such as because is too rush, other one kept silence.
Even if is forget, i wish you say sorry to me first before even say your reasons.
If is a prank, i can tell you. You do not know me well.
Well, what can i say? am i anti-social?
I don't really feels good as celebrate ones but for the others have to coop with them first.
Later your turn?
Zzzzzzz... i dun like this feeling. feels that i'm out of this party or something.
IT'S FEELS SUCKx. seriously... IT'S DOES FEELS SUCKx.
I have nothing else to say. just disappointed.
" Words is a powerful weapon. It's can changes ones emotions. "
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Usagi to kame
もしもし かめよ かめさんよ Moshi moshi kame yo kame san yo
せかいのうちで おまえほど Sekai no uchi de omae hodo
あゆみの のろい ものはない Ayumi no noroi mono wa nai
どうして そんなに のろいのか Doushite sonnani noroi no ka
" Moshi moshi kame yo kame san yo~ "
zq
せかいのうちで おまえほど Sekai no uchi de omae hodo
あゆみの のろい ものはない Ayumi no noroi mono wa nai
どうして そんなに のろいのか Doushite sonnani noroi no ka
" Moshi moshi kame yo kame san yo~ "
zq
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
today+
today
moody (in fact i'm being moody these few weeks)
sick (still recovering, getting better)
tired (tired of everything)
friends (don't have anything in skool) p.s not surprise
maths (failed. failed)
Any dream for tomorrow?
maybe (i have to shake off the negative thoughts)
overseas call (still hoping, waiting)
warm (a little warm would be nice)
heart (i hope some of the warm can warm my heart)
brain (still trying very hard to shake off the tired mind)
" yesterday gone, today just came, tomorrow unknown. Wishes can be made "
moody (in fact i'm being moody these few weeks)
sick (still recovering, getting better)
tired (tired of everything)
friends (don't have anything in skool) p.s not surprise
maths (failed. failed)
Any dream for tomorrow?
maybe (i have to shake off the negative thoughts)
overseas call (still hoping, waiting)
warm (a little warm would be nice)
heart (i hope some of the warm can warm my heart)
brain (still trying very hard to shake off the tired mind)
" yesterday gone, today just came, tomorrow unknown. Wishes can be made "
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Don't Speak
4 months had passed.
Last contact was around March 09.
July had just came. August coming soon.
Your birthday. My birthday. 4 years we haven celebrate together.
Our voices always traveled across the sea.
I started losing faith, my only power to carry on.
Starting to lose faith, lose hope and my life.
I don't how much i can carry on.
My darling, my only life in this world.
I remembered you don't like my mouth cause i always say something bad.
I promised i changed this bad habit.
I often said love you but you always thought i won't last that long.
I promise i won't changed my love to you.
6 years relationship. To me, it's not 6 years.
I felt hundreds years had passed by.
I don't mind waiting, but for now.
I missed your voice, your hand and your smiles.
My birthday wish is :-
" i wish to see you, to hear, to feel, and to see your smile. "
zq
Last contact was around March 09.
July had just came. August coming soon.
Your birthday. My birthday. 4 years we haven celebrate together.
Our voices always traveled across the sea.
I started losing faith, my only power to carry on.
Starting to lose faith, lose hope and my life.
I don't how much i can carry on.
My darling, my only life in this world.
I remembered you don't like my mouth cause i always say something bad.
I promised i changed this bad habit.
I often said love you but you always thought i won't last that long.
I promise i won't changed my love to you.
6 years relationship. To me, it's not 6 years.
I felt hundreds years had passed by.
I don't mind waiting, but for now.
I missed your voice, your hand and your smiles.
My birthday wish is :-
" i wish to see you, to hear, to feel, and to see your smile. "
zq
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Sick~ not feeling well~ wat's wrong?
not feeling these three weeks. very sick. very~
oh... holidays ends soon. crapz, lot's of things have to be done.
Printing list -------------------------*
Thing to be done:-
1.html blog.
2.html project
3.java hmwk
4.flash
Amazing~ left 4 to be clear.. wow! hahas. but i need to work hard for these.
first one, no idea.. tmr then think.. draw a design? using frames? Omg... frames....
next, html project. here comes the lists-----*
1.modify the main movie
2.remove borders
3.chatbox
4.padding for the text
5.more detail muz be link
6.quotes - javascript
7.footer in all pages
8.large, medium, small
9.membership signup form
Oh sh*t... so much things to do. well~~
next battle player, java hmwk. i guess this still ok. java i understand how it works.
last, final battle. Flash. yea.. FLASH? need to do one html for the flash. huh?
can i put it in the html assignment? watever... i juz put in.
Wish me luck and been sick is bad.. real bad.
" I have given up hope, faith and life. What do i left with? "
zq
oh... holidays ends soon. crapz, lot's of things have to be done.
Printing list -------------------------*
Thing to be done:-
1.html blog.
2.html project
3.java hmwk
4.flash
Amazing~ left 4 to be clear.. wow! hahas. but i need to work hard for these.
first one, no idea.. tmr then think.. draw a design? using frames? Omg... frames....
next, html project. here comes the lists-----*
1.modify the main movie
2.remove borders
3.chatbox
4.padding for the text
5.more detail muz be link
6.quotes - javascript
7.footer in all pages
8.large, medium, small
9.membership signup form
Oh sh*t... so much things to do. well~~
next battle player, java hmwk. i guess this still ok. java i understand how it works.
last, final battle. Flash. yea.. FLASH? need to do one html for the flash. huh?
can i put it in the html assignment? watever... i juz put in.
Wish me luck and been sick is bad.. real bad.
" I have given up hope, faith and life. What do i left with? "
zq
Monday, June 22, 2009
In the search of the truth, hunting down my true-self
One weeks passed by. Too busy. Life dull as always. My heart at taiwan. Still stuck there.
Ok! Where to start? HTML.
Finally finished this pain ass assignment. although there are some problem in the coding.
Got problem in IE6,7,8. Can't projected image. Oh my god~
I dunno how to settle this coding problem. Well, not that i dun wan to solve but the knowlegel i have can't help me much.
Lazy~~ excuses~~
Ya. Agree. Very Agree. Starting to getting lazy. maybe because i dun have the force or energy to carry on this.
All my energy is on my ger. Sounds very "sticky" lolxx
but still gt one more to go, scott jones's assignement. Haiz.. give me a break~
Next - myself
I found myself get angry to alot of things which is in the past, i won't give a damn.
Well, what happen to me? idk-??
Maybe i started to show my hidden side.
Normally i dun realli show emotions to outsider or friends. Even best friends. Except which i normally do is juz laugh. loudly, cheeky, oddly(?). All kinds.
To those peoples who want to know me more, give up ba~!
I'm very anti-social. very~ although i dun show it but i would normally dun give a damn unless u are my ger or best friends.
Many people projected me as friendly, helpful, bossy, loudly voice, etc...
But that is not my true-self.
I'm rather ...... copying others people actions. I dun really have a character of myself.
I would juz copy the character that i know for the situations.
Too the straight, boring person.
Dunno what am i writing now... watever.. MY BLOG leh..
Truth ------------
One question in my mind - "should i just ignore other people concerns?"
These have been bugging me long time.
I remember that Tony (my boss who i work be4), said that dun ignore others people concerns.
why u do that?
I replied, "why should i care? i think they should mind their own business. stop showing fake concern!".
To me, I don't trust human beings. Words gives them the power to lie, to take someone life, to destroy someones dreams. I believe that the most powerful weapon is words, rather to be actual, Human spoken language.
Tony gave me a bible, asked to read about it. I read. Even believe my truth is the real truth.
Tony asked me, "do i believe in faith?"
"What is faith?" well, my angmos not good.
He explained but still i replied, "faith is something does not exist in my life"
He answered, "no, you haven receive faith yet. That's why you don't understand."
I still remember this conversation. Maybe i should receive faith. I should start to believe in things.
Maybe this will help me in my relationship, Overseas relationship. Help me in my life. My goals.
"Seeking the truth may let you down, but don't give up easily. Make miracle instead. Humans have the ability."
zq
Ok! Where to start? HTML.
Finally finished this pain ass assignment. although there are some problem in the coding.
Got problem in IE6,7,8. Can't projected image. Oh my god~
I dunno how to settle this coding problem. Well, not that i dun wan to solve but the knowlegel i have can't help me much.
Lazy~~ excuses~~
Ya. Agree. Very Agree. Starting to getting lazy. maybe because i dun have the force or energy to carry on this.
All my energy is on my ger. Sounds very "sticky" lolxx
but still gt one more to go, scott jones's assignement. Haiz.. give me a break~
Next - myself
I found myself get angry to alot of things which is in the past, i won't give a damn.
Well, what happen to me? idk-??
Maybe i started to show my hidden side.
Normally i dun realli show emotions to outsider or friends. Even best friends. Except which i normally do is juz laugh. loudly, cheeky, oddly(?). All kinds.
To those peoples who want to know me more, give up ba~!
I'm very anti-social. very~ although i dun show it but i would normally dun give a damn unless u are my ger or best friends.
Many people projected me as friendly, helpful, bossy, loudly voice, etc...
But that is not my true-self.
I'm rather ...... copying others people actions. I dun really have a character of myself.
I would juz copy the character that i know for the situations.
Too the straight, boring person.
Dunno what am i writing now... watever.. MY BLOG leh..
Truth ------------
One question in my mind - "should i just ignore other people concerns?"
These have been bugging me long time.
I remember that Tony (my boss who i work be4), said that dun ignore others people concerns.
why u do that?
I replied, "why should i care? i think they should mind their own business. stop showing fake concern!".
To me, I don't trust human beings. Words gives them the power to lie, to take someone life, to destroy someones dreams. I believe that the most powerful weapon is words, rather to be actual, Human spoken language.
Tony gave me a bible, asked to read about it. I read. Even believe my truth is the real truth.
Tony asked me, "do i believe in faith?"
"What is faith?" well, my angmos not good.
He explained but still i replied, "faith is something does not exist in my life"
He answered, "no, you haven receive faith yet. That's why you don't understand."
I still remember this conversation. Maybe i should receive faith. I should start to believe in things.
Maybe this will help me in my relationship, Overseas relationship. Help me in my life. My goals.
"Seeking the truth may let you down, but don't give up easily. Make miracle instead. Humans have the ability."
zq
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Disappointed today
I feel sad, today since morning til now to the current time.
I found myself started to escape my problems.
Reluctant to do my Maths and Japanese work.
Feeling very tired about web project when i think of it there are so much work to do.
Started not to use my brain for the today's Maths quiz.
I am so disappointed of myself today.
It just not like me, so many negative thoughts.
I kept daydreams in the daytime.
I don't have any ideas what am i doing.
If i do something wrong or crazy on you all, my friends,
please forgive for my crazy actions or stupid words which i may offended to you.
I regretted that i have wasted one day of my time.
I hope that i can get it over soon, as soon as possible.
" There's are many ways to waste time. Why not use this time to relax yourself? Stop daydreaming~!! "
zq
I found myself started to escape my problems.
Reluctant to do my Maths and Japanese work.
Feeling very tired about web project when i think of it there are so much work to do.
Started not to use my brain for the today's Maths quiz.
I am so disappointed of myself today.
It just not like me, so many negative thoughts.
I kept daydreams in the daytime.
I don't have any ideas what am i doing.
If i do something wrong or crazy on you all, my friends,
please forgive for my crazy actions or stupid words which i may offended to you.
I regretted that i have wasted one day of my time.
I hope that i can get it over soon, as soon as possible.
" There's are many ways to waste time. Why not use this time to relax yourself? Stop daydreaming~!! "
zq
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Beer in hot weather~
Yes, Beer~!
Heineken one bot please.
No lah, not at coffeeshop. At home drinking.
These days is damn hot today, i been looking at the beer quite sometime.
But never touch because i think i should avoid it. Plus too busy to drink also.
Today is a special day, I have done the comms skills role play. One job done.
A little happy today, coz less things to do. Wahhaha~~
As for the beer, chilled cold beer is great. One slip is not enuff~~
Enjoying my mug while typing is damn great. (sorry huxley :) )
(u will say bo chio, i noe. lolxx)
Problems arise during the process in blog.
My ger, skool works, and many more.
I hope that i can solve all of them.
Wish me luck.~~~
p.s. Happy Birthday, June and Anson. Hopes yours wish comes true~~!!
zq
Monday, June 1, 2009
Too busy to PISSED OFF
Lately i been busy on someone matters.
And found out myself that i'm too kaypo.
Why say so?
Reasons are :-
I treated this person as a good friend, even used my sleep time to help this (let's call it as A).
but A can tell me, "Thanks for your help, i'm fine now"
Well, looking at this sentence. I should be happy isn't?
But there are more to come.
I know A is sad about something, so i asked A about it. Guess What?
"Nth lah, thks for your care. I'm alright"
All of the sudden, i got this cold reply.
So i wonder is it really something wrong. Asked one more time.
Same reply. This happens lot's of time. I tried to give more time for A.
Maybe A haven sort of it's feelings.
After weeks, it still gives this kinds of reply. I can't stand it and asked what happen.
In the end, i got reply like "thks but i'm ok". A is not telling anything. But i do really cared about it.
I got a very pissed off feelings. And i started to wonder why am i deserved this treatment.
Now, I got this been "used" feelings. Found out this friend is not a good friend.
My time is been wasted. I very pissed off because this friend is treating me very cold yet all these problems is not related to me at all (at least this how i think)
Tried to ask why, guess what. "i been treating everyone cold, not only you"
Huh? WTH.... i don't deserved this at all. I been showing care and concern yet i got this.
Maybe is my problem, poking into other peoples problem too much.
Anyway, i'm too busy to ask why anymore. I'm tired about A's friendship.
When i heard A saying about i'm A's good friend,
I wonder is A meant it or just for the sake of saying.
Your action doesn't shows what you say, A.
Whatever!~ I got my ger to worry, plus skoolwork plus many many other things.
Just felt i wasted too much time on A, yet i get this treatment.
I'M SO PISSED OFF.
And now, i'm typing in anger and disappointment. I will just treat this friend the same as before,
Good Friend.
Whatever A give me cold or warm shoulder is not longer matter to me.
Not happy or sad. No more, just treat it as a weather.
Rain or Shine. It's doesn't matter. Just carrying on my life.
" Friends are there to help you passed thru difficulty, but they do not deserved to be dump afterward "
zq
And found out myself that i'm too kaypo.
Why say so?
Reasons are :-
I treated this person as a good friend, even used my sleep time to help this (let's call it as A).
but A can tell me, "Thanks for your help, i'm fine now"
Well, looking at this sentence. I should be happy isn't?
But there are more to come.
I know A is sad about something, so i asked A about it. Guess What?
"Nth lah, thks for your care. I'm alright"
All of the sudden, i got this cold reply.
So i wonder is it really something wrong. Asked one more time.
Same reply. This happens lot's of time. I tried to give more time for A.
Maybe A haven sort of it's feelings.
After weeks, it still gives this kinds of reply. I can't stand it and asked what happen.
In the end, i got reply like "thks but i'm ok". A is not telling anything. But i do really cared about it.
I got a very pissed off feelings. And i started to wonder why am i deserved this treatment.
Now, I got this been "used" feelings. Found out this friend is not a good friend.
My time is been wasted. I very pissed off because this friend is treating me very cold yet all these problems is not related to me at all (at least this how i think)
Tried to ask why, guess what. "i been treating everyone cold, not only you"
Huh? WTH.... i don't deserved this at all. I been showing care and concern yet i got this.
Maybe is my problem, poking into other peoples problem too much.
Anyway, i'm too busy to ask why anymore. I'm tired about A's friendship.
When i heard A saying about i'm A's good friend,
I wonder is A meant it or just for the sake of saying.
Your action doesn't shows what you say, A.
Whatever!~ I got my ger to worry, plus skoolwork plus many many other things.
Just felt i wasted too much time on A, yet i get this treatment.
I'M SO PISSED OFF.
And now, i'm typing in anger and disappointment. I will just treat this friend the same as before,
Good Friend.
Whatever A give me cold or warm shoulder is not longer matter to me.
Not happy or sad. No more, just treat it as a weather.
Rain or Shine. It's doesn't matter. Just carrying on my life.
" Friends are there to help you passed thru difficulty, but they do not deserved to be dump afterward "
zq
Sunday, May 31, 2009
pain in my heart~
----[ Sudden pain in my heart ]----
I remember this pain before in the past.
These happens when my ger in troubles and it's always happened to be true.
But this time, the pain is stronger than before.
I'm so worried about her safety in overseas, Taiwan.
Previous incident happened in hongkong.
She got slapped by her friends in hongkong.
I feel sudden heart pain.
I tot it's was my health problem since i'm overweight.
But in the end after when to the doctor,
he said that I'm healthy, everything normal except my weight problem.
Out of sudden thoughts, i decided to give a call to my ger in hk.
Got her on the line, i heard her voice was almost breakdown.
Crying voice came after that.
It's makes me more even heart pains, and asked what's wrong.
These happened even earlier before these incident.
The only difference is she was in overseas instead in Singapore.
I'm very very worried. I guess these few weeks will be tough.
Hoping that she can called me and let me know she is fine.
I'm willing to endure this pain but please please,
please be fine.
zq
I remember this pain before in the past.
These happens when my ger in troubles and it's always happened to be true.
But this time, the pain is stronger than before.
I'm so worried about her safety in overseas, Taiwan.
Previous incident happened in hongkong.
She got slapped by her friends in hongkong.
I feel sudden heart pain.
I tot it's was my health problem since i'm overweight.
But in the end after when to the doctor,
he said that I'm healthy, everything normal except my weight problem.
Out of sudden thoughts, i decided to give a call to my ger in hk.
Got her on the line, i heard her voice was almost breakdown.
Crying voice came after that.
It's makes me more even heart pains, and asked what's wrong.
These happened even earlier before these incident.
The only difference is she was in overseas instead in Singapore.
I'm very very worried. I guess these few weeks will be tough.
Hoping that she can called me and let me know she is fine.
I'm willing to endure this pain but please please,
please be fine.
zq
Saturday, May 30, 2009
TGIF
Thank god is friday? i'm not a god-believer, neither a free-thinker. but still loves fridays
Today i'm quite mess up, wake up at 0845. crap! i'm late for ESS quiz.
Quickly wash myself up and ready for skools.
Halt a cab nearby, but i realise that take a cab morning will see alot of jam.
Which i'm rushing against time. Oh well~~
Ran up the stairs. I HATE STAIRS. it's realli make me tired. (hey stairs, help me here ok!?)
have a thoughts on myself, time to cut down weight.
Lucky i was in time for the quiz, and i did the test.
Hmm... wasn't bad. 15/20. was an A. hehe
Doing up the mockup and submitted to the sharepoint. (when is the sharepoint can be access internetly?)
After the class, i'm meeting with my comm skills grp. Discuss about the roles plays
And thanks for the laptop cover, Jit Yang~!
Royson also rushing against time also coz he nid to go for seminar @ SMU
Heard was about security thingy. Boring~~
Going lunch with syl, marilyn and suhaimi @ Mac
Then go home str8.
I found myself too tired to do anything and when to my bed.
Be4 i sleep, i was thinking about my stupid ger. until now haven call me yet.
well she always like that de. I guess i have to wait for at least half a year for her to contact me.
She at taiwan now, i guess she will be shopping around madly, crazy till dropped feet.
" ger, please sms me at least to let me know that u are fine there... "
zq
Today i'm quite mess up, wake up at 0845. crap! i'm late for ESS quiz.
Quickly wash myself up and ready for skools.
Halt a cab nearby, but i realise that take a cab morning will see alot of jam.
Which i'm rushing against time. Oh well~~
Ran up the stairs. I HATE STAIRS. it's realli make me tired. (hey stairs, help me here ok!?)
have a thoughts on myself, time to cut down weight.
Lucky i was in time for the quiz, and i did the test.
Hmm... wasn't bad. 15/20. was an A. hehe
Doing up the mockup and submitted to the sharepoint. (when is the sharepoint can be access internetly?)
After the class, i'm meeting with my comm skills grp. Discuss about the roles plays
And thanks for the laptop cover, Jit Yang~!
Royson also rushing against time also coz he nid to go for seminar @ SMU
Heard was about security thingy. Boring~~
Going lunch with syl, marilyn and suhaimi @ Mac
Then go home str8.
I found myself too tired to do anything and when to my bed.
Be4 i sleep, i was thinking about my stupid ger. until now haven call me yet.
well she always like that de. I guess i have to wait for at least half a year for her to contact me.
She at taiwan now, i guess she will be shopping around madly, crazy till dropped feet.
" ger, please sms me at least to let me know that u are fine there... "
zq
Friday, May 29, 2009
zq learning how to do html by start blogging
yeah~ zq starting today, saturday 30 may 2009, learning html by doing blogging. These few weeks saw the blogs kings and diva damn zai at html. After a few thoughts, and found out i been wasting too much time on the html class that i was unable to catch up the rest. so guyz and gers, please help this old newbie at this thingy.
よろしくお願いします～
zq
よろしくお願いします～
zq