Asada Ryutaro

Asada Ryutaro - Skilled Surgeon (Team Medical Dragon)

" I can't forsake the patients whose going to die in front of my eyes "
" Trust them, they are the real doctors. "
" No matter what is going to happen to me, I'm going to save them "
" We are team, without you. We are nothing! "
" He know that he is a sinner, but he have no choice to chose this path.
But you are forced to walk this path that's the path he wishes. Keep walking. "
" I will not give up even is just 0.1%. I will save him from the depth of death. "
" Cases in the medical book are not the same as the real cases. "


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Killing me Softly in my Heart

My gal SmS me.
Rare, but nice to see.
She asking why i didnt call her.
She miss me. So do i.
but i dun have money to call her.
yes.. no money. i'm in a very deep hole.
maybe later part, i wont be in Nyp.
i realli nid love to continue this Trial.
i need strength for now.
i'm such a weakling.

" Love or Bread, choose one. "

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Urahara Kisuke

" There is nothing but fear reflected in your sword. When you dodge, you're afraid of getting killed. When you attack, you're afraid of killing someone. Even when you try to protect someone, you're afraid of letting them die. Yes, your sword speaks to me only of absurd fear. What's necessary in a fight isn't fear. Nothing can be born of that. When you dodge, "I won't let them cut me." If you protect someone, "I won't let them die." If you attack, "I will kill them." Well, can't you see the resolve to kill you in my sword? "

Fear is something not necessary. Nothing can born of that. Resolve can be seen.

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Fate | Destiny

Destiny Fate

Is there any difference to this two words?

The world is moving. i don't feel the move. i don't feel any pain.
Remember she left me behind, i found myself powerless.
powerless and unable to pull her to stay.
love is important to me.
she is more realistic than me.
she's living in this world. she living in my world.
everything is moving even after she left.
the world does not cry for me. heart felt pain.
after years, i'm still love her.
but felt powerless.

i'm searching for power to stand. power to hold.
Powerless is grant to me even loss was too great to carry,
i fell into this deep hold.
holding my friends hands but who can save me.
who can save me?

I'm thinking all the negative thoughts.
too negative. i fail myself rather than i failed the test.
Is there nothing i can do to break this destiny or fate?
i urge power, i urge for power.
too sleepy to think.
today i shall stop here.

" who can save me this salvetion or im suppose to drop to the depth of the hell? "

Close to heart

i saw a TV programming about celebrity introduce Brunei tourism.
Eric Zeng, HongKong celebrity.
he was talking about his point view in life. before and after.
he had been thru 7 days of monk in his life in taiwan.
he said about Buddhism, talking about cleansing his soul in 7 days.
he also talk about ones hold something dearly.
Buddhism talks about letting it go, why bother holding?
ones came to this world with nothing, and bring nothing when it goes.
i started to think about the misunderstanding between us.
although i know they are just having fun, and i just means surprise.
but i just dun feel nice about it. heart felt sour and bitter.
i was thinking the past what i have did to them was trying to ignore them.
i was wrong to do this because i also made me feel unhappy too.
i thought they would know or understand how i felt.
after listening Eric Zeng talking about his experience,
i started to realize i have been unhappy for sometime.
Is time to let go of this matter. maybe is too late.
i guess it doesn't matter. as long i release this burden,
freedom is the word.

i guess is hard to speak infront of them as i started to imagine.
cards maybe works. maybe ~

" letting it go doesn't mean you don't care, it just releasing your burden "

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