Close to heart

i saw a TV programming about celebrity introduce Brunei tourism.
Eric Zeng, HongKong celebrity.
he was talking about his point view in life. before and after.
he had been thru 7 days of monk in his life in taiwan.
he said about Buddhism, talking about cleansing his soul in 7 days.
he also talk about ones hold something dearly.
Buddhism talks about letting it go, why bother holding?
ones came to this world with nothing, and bring nothing when it goes.
i started to think about the misunderstanding between us.
although i know they are just having fun, and i just means surprise.
but i just dun feel nice about it. heart felt sour and bitter.
i was thinking the past what i have did to them was trying to ignore them.
i was wrong to do this because i also made me feel unhappy too.
i thought they would know or understand how i felt.
after listening Eric Zeng talking about his experience,
i started to realize i have been unhappy for sometime.
Is time to let go of this matter. maybe is too late.
i guess it doesn't matter. as long i release this burden,
freedom is the word.

i guess is hard to speak infront of them as i started to imagine.
cards maybe works. maybe ~

" letting it go doesn't mean you don't care, it just releasing your burden "

zq