hello

hello, back to my world.
current time: 10:15 p.m
task: mathxl (haven even started to do the rest of the tut)
throw this away =.=
i know, things have to do no matter what.

Report this few days:-
tired as usual but cant get my clock correctly.
i think i mess up my internal clock. i cannt sleep well in the night. my goodness!
found huxley doing up his blog, way to go bro. at least i know how u feel, in ur heart.
roy is worrying his 小红帽(red hat); bro, u have tried best. stop worrying and get over it.
today go home wif quite a number of guest, they are kairong, marilyn. rare.
but i saw someone kept quiet when she leave. well, i saw it girl.

i know that we have a wall between us, and i don't know how to overcome this wall.
or rather i didn't cross my mind to go over. but on thoughts.
i feel that it's better that we stay in this way. cause i feel that we cant really talk.
or rather it's my problems to talk this way. mostly i believe it.

i can feel that our convo is always end up wif somethings goes too "high".
so i decided to keep my mouth shut infront of you. as i feel that you will feel more comfortable.
as for me, i do care about you. as long i can see you go happy, i'm fine with everything.
but in my heart, there is a place inside. i never expected that you will talk to me again.
i guess is better to stay it in this way. it's let me know where am i.

and i back to single. we found out that we don't have love in ourself.
we talked thru overseas phone. time proved that love flame can go off just like that.
we talked and show no sadness. we understand that if we have a chance or time to go back the same love, we can. but as for current; we are friends.

i'm not sad, or rather i feel it will go into this way.
i still do love her but someone has accidently went to my heart.
and my gf know it. she know i'm easily cross over the line. coz she also the same type as me. :)
but she didn't hate me for that. she forgive me but she also felt that it also her wrong.
i did not blame her on that. i have to admit that it is my fault.
to letting someone went to my heart. she gave me time.
time will solve this problem as she say i love you.

thinking what to say next. haha :)
i don't know. i think i must really start studying hard. because of this problem.
i lost all my passion of learning. thinking all the nonsense.
i have to drop every single thing i have inorder to move forward.

lastly:-

To someone,

maybe im thinking too much, but i dun think that u even care.
so basically, it is my problem. i don't hope or wish whatever.
staying in this relationship is okay for me.
im starting to get used to it. so if i really hurt you in the past,
i know sorry is not the best way to show but
i still gonna say.

I'm sorry, i didn't meant it this way. and i have made myself a fool.
you are fine but problems lies within me.

if you can see it, i'm glad that message is passed.
but if you can't see it, i only can say, i don't have to courage to say it.

maybe i think too much? maybe.
i tend to think too much.

okay. i guess that's it.

Happy Chinese New Year
新年快乐 万事如意