星情

思念是一种很玄的东西
如影~随形
无声又无息出没在心底
转眼~吞没我在寂默里

我一个人吃饭　旅行　到处走走停停
也一个人看书　写信　自己对话谈心

整条街
都是恋爱的人
我独自走在暖风的夜
多想要向过去告别
当季节不停更迭

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应

你把我灌醉
你让我流泪
扛下了所有罪
我拼命挽回

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

你在一公尺不到的面前
手拼命挥还是往下坠
眼神那么绝冻结一切不让我挽回
我在一公尺之外的世界
一辈子回不了的原点
我这才发现你离我有多么远
我只有成全让你离开我身边

feelings

I feels very sad for my bro here.
he gt a very bad issue wif some people.
although in this issue, is really very normal but still..
if issue not treated well, it can really go bad.
hurt are made, but this is not about fixing it back.
it still way back to the root, heart.
if heart is not there, no matter how u repair, it will never get it back.

for my own views,
to me, she has become or became a person who thinks in this world, there are right and wrong.
in this world, not only black and white. there are gray areas.
Please do consider the gray areas and i hope u will find ur answers.

back to me.=

i had organized a class outing to the mind cafe @ boat quay.
I got alot of feedback about the whole events.
firstly, thks for hunks and chicks for making an efforts for this event.
i can feel the high in the event.
Thks to royson for bring his friends to our event but...
i tot u were bringing ur vivian here! chey... anyway, these are guest of honor. they beef up the high.
thks for the feedback i receieved. i hope u all enjoy the event.
although i have some disappointment in myself.
i failed to make two group or rather three group into one.
i have really tried my best but still not enuff.
after the events, we go to lau pa sa for dinner and way back to boat quay for getting breezes.
it sure feel nice. makes me think of organizing a bbq near the sea. haha.. maybe

but still i will plan for the next events for IS0902.
Our class wants to feel more bond.

that's all for today.

" Assume is ASS U & ME "

zq

hello

hello, back to my world.
current time: 10:15 p.m
task: mathxl (haven even started to do the rest of the tut)
throw this away =.=
i know, things have to do no matter what.

Report this few days:-
tired as usual but cant get my clock correctly.
i think i mess up my internal clock. i cannt sleep well in the night. my goodness!
found huxley doing up his blog, way to go bro. at least i know how u feel, in ur heart.
roy is worrying his 小红帽(red hat); bro, u have tried best. stop worrying and get over it.
today go home wif quite a number of guest, they are kairong, marilyn. rare.
but i saw someone kept quiet when she leave. well, i saw it girl.

i know that we have a wall between us, and i don't know how to overcome this wall.
or rather i didn't cross my mind to go over. but on thoughts.
i feel that it's better that we stay in this way. cause i feel that we cant really talk.
or rather it's my problems to talk this way. mostly i believe it.

i can feel that our convo is always end up wif somethings goes too "high".
so i decided to keep my mouth shut infront of you. as i feel that you will feel more comfortable.
as for me, i do care about you. as long i can see you go happy, i'm fine with everything.
but in my heart, there is a place inside. i never expected that you will talk to me again.
i guess is better to stay it in this way. it's let me know where am i.

and i back to single. we found out that we don't have love in ourself.
we talked thru overseas phone. time proved that love flame can go off just like that.
we talked and show no sadness. we understand that if we have a chance or time to go back the same love, we can. but as for current; we are friends.

i'm not sad, or rather i feel it will go into this way.
i still do love her but someone has accidently went to my heart.
and my gf know it. she know i'm easily cross over the line. coz she also the same type as me. :)
but she didn't hate me for that. she forgive me but she also felt that it also her wrong.
i did not blame her on that. i have to admit that it is my fault.
to letting someone went to my heart. she gave me time.
time will solve this problem as she say i love you.

thinking what to say next. haha :)
i don't know. i think i must really start studying hard. because of this problem.
i lost all my passion of learning. thinking all the nonsense.
i have to drop every single thing i have inorder to move forward.

lastly:-

To someone,

maybe im thinking too much, but i dun think that u even care.
so basically, it is my problem. i don't hope or wish whatever.
staying in this relationship is okay for me.
im starting to get used to it. so if i really hurt you in the past,
i know sorry is not the best way to show but
i still gonna say.

I'm sorry, i didn't meant it this way. and i have made myself a fool.
you are fine but problems lies within me.

if you can see it, i'm glad that message is passed.
but if you can't see it, i only can say, i don't have to courage to say it.

maybe i think too much? maybe.
i tend to think too much.

okay. i guess that's it.

Happy Chinese New Year
新年快乐 万事如意

tired

as usual tired.
tired of living.
tired of doing not worth of my time.
tired of listening to people while they don't even listen to me.
tired of speaking.
tired of studying.
tired of gaming.
tired of dreaming.
tired of my relationship.
tired of calling her oversea while she was busy, unable to pick up my call.
tired of doing the report which i did the most work.
tired of reading others peoples mind.
tired of living in this earth.
tired of living alone.
tired. tired. tired.

" It's time to press reset button. stop dreaming moron!! "

zq

Sorry

Sorry

Understanding

thoughts for today:-
tired, still have maths to go. tut7.
comms skills report by wk 13.
network report by wk 16.
OOJ by wk 17.

holiday is screwed, dun think i can rest.
finally done my cpf issue, but still i nid to write a letter to finance nyp.
oh well, bummer. no idea how to type it out.
business ethics essay quiz is at this Thursday.
sure is hard. trying very hard for all the problems i faced.
this Friday meeting my bro for java. hope he can teach me some tricks.

i feel tired, wanted to talk to my ger but she busy.
i think we are in the end, sometimes.
we dun realli have any talks between us. sometimes we speak silence thru phone.
maybe we noe each other very well? maybe. i'm sure i noe her very well.. haha maybe.
hux and me go to BK for munch. talks about alot of things.
no idea why we talks alot of things. but still, he is a good friend.
stopping talking nonsense. learned to listen silence.
more works on hand than my ill mouth.
starting to get rid of my bad habits.
good signs. i guess.

i think that's it. sign off.

zq

" long distance relationship is hard to maintain but i will keep trying til she throw me away "

I wonder

I wonder anyone looking at my blog?
I wonder what is my ger doing?
I wonder how am i suppose to solve all the issues?
I wonder how long can i stand in this world?
I wonder after i fall apart, where am i going?
I wonder when is the so called best friend going to talk to me again?
I start to wonder, wonder and wonder. *Stone*

I wonder the effort to keep the friendship is worth keeping?
I wonder when can i get back my attitude on study?
I wonder when can i start to think better?
I wonder when am i going to start to cut my fat down?
I start to wonder again, again and again. *Stone*

I wonder my love between with her is it still there?
I wonder is there anyone care about me while i care too much for others?
I wonder is there anyone heard my voice?
I wonder is success start from habits?
I wonder can i identify my bad habits?
I wonder should i close my blog since no one cares?
I start to stone, again and again. *Wonder*

" I wonder... "

zq