" There is nothing either good or bad.
but thinking makes it so. "
William Shakespeare
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
today+
today
moody (in fact i'm being moody these few weeks)
sick (still recovering, getting better)
tired (tired of everything)
friends (don't have anything in skool) p.s not surprise
maths (failed. failed)
Any dream for tomorrow?
maybe (i have to shake off the negative thoughts)
overseas call (still hoping, waiting)
warm (a little warm would be nice)
heart (i hope some of the warm can warm my heart)
brain (still trying very hard to shake off the tired mind)
" yesterday gone, today just came, tomorrow unknown. Wishes can be made "
moody (in fact i'm being moody these few weeks)
sick (still recovering, getting better)
tired (tired of everything)
friends (don't have anything in skool) p.s not surprise
maths (failed. failed)
Any dream for tomorrow?
maybe (i have to shake off the negative thoughts)
overseas call (still hoping, waiting)
warm (a little warm would be nice)
heart (i hope some of the warm can warm my heart)
brain (still trying very hard to shake off the tired mind)
" yesterday gone, today just came, tomorrow unknown. Wishes can be made "
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Don't Speak
4 months had passed.
Last contact was around March 09.
July had just came. August coming soon.
Your birthday. My birthday. 4 years we haven celebrate together.
Our voices always traveled across the sea.
I started losing faith, my only power to carry on.
Starting to lose faith, lose hope and my life.
I don't how much i can carry on.
My darling, my only life in this world.
I remembered you don't like my mouth cause i always say something bad.
I promised i changed this bad habit.
I often said love you but you always thought i won't last that long.
I promise i won't changed my love to you.
6 years relationship. To me, it's not 6 years.
I felt hundreds years had passed by.
I don't mind waiting, but for now.
I missed your voice, your hand and your smiles.
My birthday wish is :-
" i wish to see you, to hear, to feel, and to see your smile. "
zq
Last contact was around March 09.
July had just came. August coming soon.
Your birthday. My birthday. 4 years we haven celebrate together.
Our voices always traveled across the sea.
I started losing faith, my only power to carry on.
Starting to lose faith, lose hope and my life.
I don't how much i can carry on.
My darling, my only life in this world.
I remembered you don't like my mouth cause i always say something bad.
I promised i changed this bad habit.
I often said love you but you always thought i won't last that long.
I promise i won't changed my love to you.
6 years relationship. To me, it's not 6 years.
I felt hundreds years had passed by.
I don't mind waiting, but for now.
I missed your voice, your hand and your smiles.
My birthday wish is :-
" i wish to see you, to hear, to feel, and to see your smile. "
zq
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Sick~ not feeling well~ wat's wrong?
not feeling these three weeks. very sick. very~
oh... holidays ends soon. crapz, lot's of things have to be done.
Printing list -------------------------*
Thing to be done:-
1.html blog.
2.html project
3.java hmwk
4.flash
Amazing~ left 4 to be clear.. wow! hahas. but i need to work hard for these.
first one, no idea.. tmr then think.. draw a design? using frames? Omg... frames....
next, html project. here comes the lists-----*
1.modify the main movie
2.remove borders
3.chatbox
4.padding for the text
5.more detail muz be link
6.quotes - javascript
7.footer in all pages
8.large, medium, small
9.membership signup form
Oh sh*t... so much things to do. well~~
next battle player, java hmwk. i guess this still ok. java i understand how it works.
last, final battle. Flash. yea.. FLASH? need to do one html for the flash. huh?
can i put it in the html assignment? watever... i juz put in.
Wish me luck and been sick is bad.. real bad.
" I have given up hope, faith and life. What do i left with? "
zq
oh... holidays ends soon. crapz, lot's of things have to be done.
Printing list -------------------------*
Thing to be done:-
1.html blog.
2.html project
3.java hmwk
4.flash
Amazing~ left 4 to be clear.. wow! hahas. but i need to work hard for these.
first one, no idea.. tmr then think.. draw a design? using frames? Omg... frames....
next, html project. here comes the lists-----*
1.modify the main movie
2.remove borders
3.chatbox
4.padding for the text
5.more detail muz be link
6.quotes - javascript
7.footer in all pages
8.large, medium, small
9.membership signup form
Oh sh*t... so much things to do. well~~
next battle player, java hmwk. i guess this still ok. java i understand how it works.
last, final battle. Flash. yea.. FLASH? need to do one html for the flash. huh?
can i put it in the html assignment? watever... i juz put in.
Wish me luck and been sick is bad.. real bad.
" I have given up hope, faith and life. What do i left with? "
zq
Monday, June 22, 2009
In the search of the truth, hunting down my true-self
One weeks passed by. Too busy. Life dull as always. My heart at taiwan. Still stuck there.
Ok! Where to start? HTML.
Finally finished this pain ass assignment. although there are some problem in the coding.
Got problem in IE6,7,8. Can't projected image. Oh my god~
I dunno how to settle this coding problem. Well, not that i dun wan to solve but the knowlegel i have can't help me much.
Lazy~~ excuses~~
Ya. Agree. Very Agree. Starting to getting lazy. maybe because i dun have the force or energy to carry on this.
All my energy is on my ger. Sounds very "sticky" lolxx
but still gt one more to go, scott jones's assignement. Haiz.. give me a break~
Next - myself
I found myself get angry to alot of things which is in the past, i won't give a damn.
Well, what happen to me? idk-??
Maybe i started to show my hidden side.
Normally i dun realli show emotions to outsider or friends. Even best friends. Except which i normally do is juz laugh. loudly, cheeky, oddly(?). All kinds.
To those peoples who want to know me more, give up ba~!
I'm very anti-social. very~ although i dun show it but i would normally dun give a damn unless u are my ger or best friends.
Many people projected me as friendly, helpful, bossy, loudly voice, etc...
But that is not my true-self.
I'm rather ...... copying others people actions. I dun really have a character of myself.
I would juz copy the character that i know for the situations.
Too the straight, boring person.
Dunno what am i writing now... watever.. MY BLOG leh..
Truth ------------
One question in my mind - "should i just ignore other people concerns?"
These have been bugging me long time.
I remember that Tony (my boss who i work be4), said that dun ignore others people concerns.
why u do that?
I replied, "why should i care? i think they should mind their own business. stop showing fake concern!".
To me, I don't trust human beings. Words gives them the power to lie, to take someone life, to destroy someones dreams. I believe that the most powerful weapon is words, rather to be actual, Human spoken language.
Tony gave me a bible, asked to read about it. I read. Even believe my truth is the real truth.
Tony asked me, "do i believe in faith?"
"What is faith?" well, my angmos not good.
He explained but still i replied, "faith is something does not exist in my life"
He answered, "no, you haven receive faith yet. That's why you don't understand."
I still remember this conversation. Maybe i should receive faith. I should start to believe in things.
Maybe this will help me in my relationship, Overseas relationship. Help me in my life. My goals.
"Seeking the truth may let you down, but don't give up easily. Make miracle instead. Humans have the ability."
zq
Ok! Where to start? HTML.
Finally finished this pain ass assignment. although there are some problem in the coding.
Got problem in IE6,7,8. Can't projected image. Oh my god~
I dunno how to settle this coding problem. Well, not that i dun wan to solve but the knowlegel i have can't help me much.
Lazy~~ excuses~~
Ya. Agree. Very Agree. Starting to getting lazy. maybe because i dun have the force or energy to carry on this.
All my energy is on my ger. Sounds very "sticky" lolxx
but still gt one more to go, scott jones's assignement. Haiz.. give me a break~
Next - myself
I found myself get angry to alot of things which is in the past, i won't give a damn.
Well, what happen to me? idk-??
Maybe i started to show my hidden side.
Normally i dun realli show emotions to outsider or friends. Even best friends. Except which i normally do is juz laugh. loudly, cheeky, oddly(?). All kinds.
To those peoples who want to know me more, give up ba~!
I'm very anti-social. very~ although i dun show it but i would normally dun give a damn unless u are my ger or best friends.
Many people projected me as friendly, helpful, bossy, loudly voice, etc...
But that is not my true-self.
I'm rather ...... copying others people actions. I dun really have a character of myself.
I would juz copy the character that i know for the situations.
Too the straight, boring person.
Dunno what am i writing now... watever.. MY BLOG leh..
Truth ------------
One question in my mind - "should i just ignore other people concerns?"
These have been bugging me long time.
I remember that Tony (my boss who i work be4), said that dun ignore others people concerns.
why u do that?
I replied, "why should i care? i think they should mind their own business. stop showing fake concern!".
To me, I don't trust human beings. Words gives them the power to lie, to take someone life, to destroy someones dreams. I believe that the most powerful weapon is words, rather to be actual, Human spoken language.
Tony gave me a bible, asked to read about it. I read. Even believe my truth is the real truth.
Tony asked me, "do i believe in faith?"
"What is faith?" well, my angmos not good.
He explained but still i replied, "faith is something does not exist in my life"
He answered, "no, you haven receive faith yet. That's why you don't understand."
I still remember this conversation. Maybe i should receive faith. I should start to believe in things.
Maybe this will help me in my relationship, Overseas relationship. Help me in my life. My goals.
"Seeking the truth may let you down, but don't give up easily. Make miracle instead. Humans have the ability."
zq
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Disappointed today
I feel sad, today since morning til now to the current time.
I found myself started to escape my problems.
Reluctant to do my Maths and Japanese work.
Feeling very tired about web project when i think of it there are so much work to do.
Started not to use my brain for the today's Maths quiz.
I am so disappointed of myself today.
It just not like me, so many negative thoughts.
I kept daydreams in the daytime.
I don't have any ideas what am i doing.
If i do something wrong or crazy on you all, my friends,
please forgive for my crazy actions or stupid words which i may offended to you.
I regretted that i have wasted one day of my time.
I hope that i can get it over soon, as soon as possible.
" There's are many ways to waste time. Why not use this time to relax yourself? Stop daydreaming~!! "
zq
I found myself started to escape my problems.
Reluctant to do my Maths and Japanese work.
Feeling very tired about web project when i think of it there are so much work to do.
Started not to use my brain for the today's Maths quiz.
I am so disappointed of myself today.
It just not like me, so many negative thoughts.
I kept daydreams in the daytime.
I don't have any ideas what am i doing.
If i do something wrong or crazy on you all, my friends,
please forgive for my crazy actions or stupid words which i may offended to you.
I regretted that i have wasted one day of my time.
I hope that i can get it over soon, as soon as possible.
" There's are many ways to waste time. Why not use this time to relax yourself? Stop daydreaming~!! "
zq
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Beer in hot weather~
Yes, Beer~!
Heineken one bot please.
No lah, not at coffeeshop. At home drinking.
These days is damn hot today, i been looking at the beer quite sometime.
But never touch because i think i should avoid it. Plus too busy to drink also.
Today is a special day, I have done the comms skills role play. One job done.
A little happy today, coz less things to do. Wahhaha~~
As for the beer, chilled cold beer is great. One slip is not enuff~~
Enjoying my mug while typing is damn great. (sorry huxley :) )
(u will say bo chio, i noe. lolxx)
Problems arise during the process in blog.
My ger, skool works, and many more.
I hope that i can solve all of them.
Wish me luck.~~~
p.s. Happy Birthday, June and Anson. Hopes yours wish comes true~~!!
zq